Busy for the Holidays

I'm sooo tired! I want to sleep already but I still have tons of things to do. I need to update my blogs, bid opps, check my friends' blogs and arrange my things. I did'nt have enough sleep as I need to do so many things in the house. My sister will arrive on Sunday and I really need to make sure the house is spick and span and everything is in order. I changed the bedsheet and put on a new linoleum. I also arranged everything in the kitchen and bought groceries for next week. There are still a lot of things to do but my body is now so tired and I still have my shift later. Hopefully I can manage to stay awake for the rest of my shift tonight. Tomorrow we'll gonna go to SM to purchase Globe Tatoo as a backup dsl connection. The technician who reformatted my newly purchased ASUS EEPC 701 messed up my wireless adapter so my laptop already lost it's wireless capability. My hubby said the tech will come out today to fix my laptop as well as my desktop so hopefully everything would be fixed by tonight. For now, though I still have so many tasks to do on my blog... I think it's time for me to rest now. I just hope I can manage to finish my two task tomorrow. By the way, well gonna go to my Kuya's place in Antipolo tomorrow as we need to fetch ate and family in NAIA early Sunday. Help us Lord and I know everything will be okey next week. Amen.

What a Year Ender!

Next week is the most exciting week for me this whole year. After more than three years, I will be going back home to the province. I could not believe I stayed here for that long without visiting home. Well, a lot of reasons held me back to do so. Shameful but true, it all boils down to finanacial matters. I might have worked for years now here but I don't really have even a single penny saved in the bank. I therefore dont have the fund for the plane ticket and the stuffs that my folks might expect from me when I go home. I was always scared of that. That they might be expecting that I have something for each of them when I go home, but that would not hold me back anymore this time. They have been straight forward to me not to worry about buying anything for them, and that all they want is to see me after the past years, so sweet of them. I have also been longing to see them so much. So now's the time to break the distance.

Though my folks said they do not expect me to bring anything for them, I still have that desire in my heart to be thoughtful enough to give them presents even just for my little cousins. I got a few days to go now before my flight and I really don't have much time to shop around so I thought of just shopping online for kids stuff. Luckily, I stumbled on a website that sells great stuffs for kids and do same day shipping. So now, I got here simple gifts for my cousins that will surely make them joyful. A very cute jellycat stuff toy for DJ, a marshmallow-soft barefoot dreams loungewear for ShanShan, and a very cool appaman shirt for Shahar. They're all just perfect!

So now I am all ready for packing up. I could not wait any longer for Sunday and fly back to my hometown. I know this will be such a marvelous week. My greatest week this year!

Home for the Holidays

I got a text message earlier from my sister living in Singapore that they would be coming home for the holidays. As you all know, I with my hubby, is the one taking care of their house since she and her family migrated to Singapore. She is the one paying all the bills and in return, we need to take care of the house and everything in it. Yes, I am indeed very lucky to have her in my life and she is indeed a very generous sister... but I don't know why I get so nervous knowing they would soon be back.

It's just so happen I am afraid that they will know that my hubby is still unemployed after two long years since they left. I am afraid my sister might misinterpret my hubby's unemployed status to being dependent on me. Actually it's my own personal decision. I asked him not to apply for a job as I want him to manage our business, unfortunately, the business never materialized. I was not able to save as much as I want to and because of that, I was not able to save for our business start up capital. I know this is also not what my hubby wants. I know oftentimes he gets bored as well. He normally spend the day serving me, cooking for me, washing my clothes, cleaning and maintaining the house and just plays free games online or watch free movies on the internet for his own enjoyment. I am afraid she might find it odd that her sister is the one working for us instead of him. My husband is a loving and a giving partner... someone who takes care of my needs first before his and someone who shares so much of himself to me. I hope they could see that kind of person in him rather than someone who does'nt have any dream. I am planning to start a business next month, fortunately, I got my bonus from the company I worked for and is now ready to invest in a small business. I hope my hubby can finally prove to everyone that he can also be successful.

You Will Be Missed, Imee

It's final...the verdict has been given, my friend for two years will need to leave the account and would be transferred to a different one. It was really a sad night for all of us in the team most specially to me as she is one of my closest friend at work. She is my confidant and my usual "yosi buddy" (cigarette break buddy). We would normally go downstairs after lunch time to smoke and my lunch time would definitely be different now that she's not around anymore...

We would normally talk about office stuff, our love life, our dreams and plans for the future and we would occasionally talk about our plan to quit smoking. And as a starting point, we purchased cigarette filters to absorb some of the toxins in the cigarette we smoke and to collect those harmful solid particles known as tar. I've learned all about this by searching the net and finding ways on how to at least lessen the harmful effects of smoking on my body. We do also have plans to purchase what they call e-cigarette (or Electronic Cigarette) which acts and looks much like an actual cigarette but without the harmful toxins associated with smoking but since Imee is now gone, I think I would be the only one to push through with the plan.

Last night, I called her up. I asked her how she was doing and what keeps her busy. She said she would just rest for a while and would start working next year after the holidays. According to her, our coach told her she would go through the normal procedure in applying for a different account. She would also go through the physical exam (and she is now researching on how to pass a drug test , lol) plus written and oral exam. I can hear disappointment on her voice but I told her that everything happens for a purpose. This is God working in her life and that she needs to look on the brighter side. The conversation ended by a promise that I would just be here if she needs me and that I would remain a friend. She would definitely be missed.

The Verdict

Well, tonight will be the final verdict. Tonight, we will know what the client's decision is regarding my friend's case. The recommendation of our OMs is to just push for a suspension but the final say is still from our client. It's 50/50 actually but my friend feels that she will be transferred to another account. I hope not. I would really be sad if that would be the case as she is one of my true friends at work. I really pray the decision would be favorable to her. God, please make a way so that my friend can stay with the account. Amen.

Another Gloomy Day

I slept for almost 7 hours last night but till now... I can't understand why I feel so tired. Not just tired physically...but emotional, mentally, spiriturally. I don't know why I feel so "nega" since yesterday. Though the que is really not that bad and we even had a meeting for almost 2 hours, I still feel the pressured in the office. I feel bad that another close friend would leave the team if ever the final verdict would be either lateral transfer or termination. I already lost two of my closest friend before, one of them I treat as my bestfriend... I don't know if I could still manage to lose another. I feel so sad, tired and confused. I feel threatened, anxious and afraid...afraid of losing the foundation of my future plans. Lord, please let me endure the remaining two years of my call center journey. After two years, I can now do whatever I want to do with my life. I can now start living my dream.... I pray Lord, that you will make a way for my plans. To you be the glory forever, Amen.

What a Gloomy Day

I just don't like this day. I don't know why but I really felt so sad. Maybe I got so tired from my shift as there are so many calls coming in, furthermore, my teammates thought a large size tshirt would fit me so they picked that size for me but since the sizes are too small... there is really no way I could fit in to that shirt. Also, the pag-ibig salary loan we applied for last month still was'nt approved... and last but not the least...there is a possibility that my friend would be transferred to a different account or worse might get terminated because of an honest mistake she committed at work. I just feel like everything is falling apart. I don't like this feeling and I don't like thinking about negative things so I feel I really need to rest well today. I think I need an 8 hour sleep just to drive all these nega things away. I hope tonight would be a better night than last night shift. Amen.

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oh I almost forgot, the shoes I just wore today gave up only after 8 hours of use... what a day!

Invisible Wall

I don't know why I feel aloof and I really am not close to one of my officemates. She is a pretty and kind girl but I just can't read her mind, maybe that's the reason I tend to distance myself to her. I am a joker, most people learned to love me because of my humor and it's my way of befriending someone...but it just won't click to her. There are numerous times I offer her my hand, tried to talk to her, spend some time with her so I can know her better but it just won't work. It's hard because most of my friends are really close to her and whenever we need to go out to eat or to go somewhere...she would always come with us. We really had no fight or something like that but I feel that there is really an invisible wall between us. I hope I can get over this feeling, I really don't like it. I'm really trying my best to befriend everyone on the team. I hope I can bond with her sometime and really try to know who she really is, besides we're in one team...

On Breaking Trust

Haha, we we're permitted to go home today as Lysie, one of our previous qsps, asked us if we can file for vgh (voluntary go home) as there are so many agents on the floor and the que is not that high. In fact, we experienced 15 minutes avail time one hour before our shift ends. It's a relief as we do have a heavy call volume for the past 7 hours! So we signed up for one and was approved for VGH 45 minutes before our shift ends. Everyone was so happy because at last, we can go home early and call it a day as our shift for today was really stressful. I need to go home early as I need to finish review tasks that was supposed to expire today. Unfortunately, Ice, my officemate/friend texted me saying "galit daw si tl dahil nag vgh tayo" wtf? I really can't understand and there's really no point that he would get annoyed because we filed for vgh through other people and not through him. He never told us that we can't file for one if it is not filed through him. Things are really getting complicated on the office. I can't help but to doubt my TL as I once lost my trust in him because of a certain secret we have that he was able to share easily with others. I hate this feeling. I don't want to lose my confidence in him completely as my work would greatly suffer. I hope I can control my emotions and just stay focused on my job.

My Cute Little Dream House

Last week, I with Melai and Sam checked on the house and lot we've been wanting to purchase through a housing loan. I found it very affordable as it would only cost me almost P4100 payable in 30 years to own that property. It is a 50 sqm property, with house and lot, with provision for one bedroom at the loft. Though the lot area is not that big, I guess a little bit of imagination and creativity would work with it. I already have a plan in mind on how I would beautify this house.

The house is actually big enough for two to three people...perfect for a couple who are just starting out a life together. It is really cute. I fell in love with it the first time I saw it. I already pictured what I'll gonna do to beautify the house. I would adorn it with colorful accessories and furnitures. I'll gonna paint the house pink and yellow inside and out. Since the front yard is so huge, I would adorn it with colorful mail boxes. I've checked on the net and found a site that showcases different types of Residential Mailboxes that would fit into any type of houses and I would just purchase one online for that. I've learned that Mailboxes are used by many house owners not just to make sure the mails would be delivered to the correct address but can also be used as a house accessory.

Though the place is not yet fully developed, I think I would go for it. We are just renting our place and I feel that I am just wasting the money I pay for the rent because it the end, the house would never be ours. I want to have something that I could say mine and I pray that it would be my own house. I still am weighing my options but I hope my decision would be the best for us.

my little dream house

the inside of the house

the front yard

in Jesus name I claim this house, Amen!

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My first blog ever is turning 6 years new and I'm so happy because its the one that paved a way for me in being a profesional blogger. My first blog only comprises of personal experiences, fears, happiness - it's like a silent witness of what's been happening in my life. When I want to look back on what my life had been for the last couple of years - I take a peek on my beloved blog and reminisce.

Blogging has been a part of my life since then, at first it's just for personal but when I've learned from my friend that he is learning through his blogs, I got interested. So I purchased a computer and subscribed to a local dsl line and asked my friend to help me to be a professional blogger like him. It's a good thing that I'm already blogging for three years already when I've learned about online blogging because I already have a blog of my own to submit for review purpose. Since then, I never stop updating my blogs which now sums up to ten.

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vgh again with my new teammates!

I am so happy that we again were approved to go on vgh! We had our meeting for almost 2 hours and after our meeting, we were informed that we can now go home. The whole team, together with our new teammates went to Yoohoo Bar @ around 6:00 am to celebrate this event. Haha! We had a beer and a liempo as our pulutan. We had a blast and it seems like we already knew each other for so long because of our manner of speaking and our mannerisms. Maybe because we again happen to have a gay teammate GK. I am so happy that GK is now part of the team as he is the one bringing color to our group. Thanks Lord for my new friends. You really never fail surrounding my life with wonderful people. Amen.

On Backing Out

Hay naku, we should've gone to a comedy bar tonight but because Melai just backed out the last minute...same with icey.. well, i think I'll just gonna call it off na lang. I don't like the attitude of people who would always say yes all the time and at the last minute, would say no. It's better for you to decline to a request than to always say yes then would quit the last minute. Hay, wala tuloy akong reserbang gagawin. I have a looonggg 3 day off, I wonder what I'll do on the next two days, hayyyy... maybe I would just update all my 10 blogs, kikita pa ako. God Bless Everyone!

Medical Procedures for Mommies

Question for mothers out there ... do you often dream of being able to see yourself again the way you look before you bore your child? Do you often dream of what life would be if you had your bodies back to the way they were before they had babies? I bet thousand of mothers are still wanting to get back into their original shape but most are too busy caring for their children that they cant find time going to the gym or even work out at home just to loose all those extra weight they gained...well if you are one of them...worry no more as Science already paved its way to help you out in reviving the old self you had before and getting back the confidence you had in yourself when you are still in great shape!

There are several medical procedures such as Breast augmentation ( the procedure involves using implants to fulfill your desire for fuller breasts or to restore breast volume lost after weight reduction or pregnancy) , los angeles liposuction ( a surgical technique that improves the body's contour by removing excess fat from deposits located between the skin and muscle) and a procedure that they call los angeles tummy tuck (removes excess fat and skin, and in most cases restores weakened or separated muscles creating an abdominal profile that is smoother and firmer) among others. Some may decline this kind of idea as they lack knowledge as to how these procedures are being handled...but having the expertise and technical advances of surgeons s- you need not worry...These are fast, safe and easy procedures are being made especially by trusted staff and surgeons.

Being a mother is definitely not synonymous with being fat, ugly and unattractive. It should be treated as a state of being a complete woman. So if you are struggling to revive back your old passion for beauty...let someone help you out with that...check for any plastic surgery blog out there that tackles about these procedures to give you an ample information about their benefits. Good Luck!

Haunted by an Old Memory

He again chatted with me saying he got a tech support position on the same company I am working for only he was deligated in UP Ayala Hub. To be honest with you, I don't know why instead of being happy... I was kind'a sad about it. I resigned from my first job because of him... because I don't want to fall in love with my best friend. We're not able to see each other for five long years and then boom ... all of a sudden, he would again show up saying "at last! we're now officemates!" He does'nt have to go to the path I've walked through. I'm soooo much over him already since the day I confessed to him what had transpired in the past which made me decide to leave my job. I was kind'a devastated as he still doesn't have any clue how much he've hurted me. I don't want him to to ruin my life again. I managed to be fine without him... I managed to survive. Now, he's back - wanting me to be a part of his life again...it's just so unfair. I don't know why God allows me to go through the same path again but I believe that this is just a test of faith. I must be strong... I must learn how to resist. I must not give in...not anymore...

A Change of Heart

It has been a great week! I happen to meet with an old friend yesterday and I may say...my feelings for him was not the same as what I used to have before. Things changed drastically. I don't know why I had this sudden change of heart but I am really thankful to God for leading me in the right path. If I still have this strong feelings for him till now, it would be very hard for me to decide whether or not to settle with my present boyfriend. God really moves in mysterious ways and I know that all of these things that transpired within the past couple of months are a part of His plan. Thank you Lord for changing my heart. I now know what you want me to do. Amen.

APPLICATION

Last week, Tuesday, I had the chance to take an exam for my application as OFFLINE REPRESENTATIVE FOR TIER 2 in CVG Commonwealth. This is the first time in three years that I'll gonna apply for a promotion. I received an email last Monday that I need to go to the site to take an assessment for Tuesday and to tell you honestly, sobrang kinabahan ako, grabe! I immediatedly reviewed some common terminology used in DSL and went to the at&t helpsite to check for frequently asked questions. Right after my shift, I with Jojo, went straight to the site but unfortunately, nobody knows anything about my exam. Even the receptionist doesnt have the slightest idea on where I need to go. Though I already showed them the text message I received on where I need to take the exam - the guards send me off to LG, UG, 2nd and 3rd floor. I waited at the lobby for almost an hour now and I am really planning to leave in another 30 mins. Good thing, I texted the one who informed me about the exam and after an hour (watda!) she replied asking me to look for a certain TL. The guard accompanied me and informed the TL that I have been there for more than an hour now. The TL is so kind and asked me to take the exam at the conference room for 30 mins. I never thought that the exam would be that easy - it is a five part exam and I answered 3 parts I believe with flying colors. I am positive with the result of it. After 30 mins, the TL came back asking me if I am now ready for the interview. I said yes but he said that it would be better if I am with my TL when they conduct the interview. In that way, my TL can agree to what I am saying. He said I just need to wait as they will contact my TL for the interview schedule with the Operations Manager. I asked him how would I know if I passed or I failed the exam and he replied saying "This test is not a test if you would make it or not - this is just an assessment on how well you know some technical stuff". He said that it is a TIER 2 position w/c I really cant understand. As far as I know, I am already a Tier 2 Tech Support Rep. Well, he also said there are also 2 other applicants from our site and they might get one from us as the position is urgent. I went home tired, hopeful and happy. I did my best - I think that's what really matters. To you be the Glory Jesus, Amen!

CVG COMMONWEALTH SITE

MY DREAM OF BEING AN ENTREPRENEUR

Lately, my time is usually being spent in front of my PC - checking, researching and finding ways to earn extra so we could be able to save for our future. I want to have one so bad that I search most all day for the past 2 days now, with lunch and dinner as my only break time. No wonder my eyes feel tired and heavy all the time. I've never been obsessed like this before - I've never wanted something so much that it takes me hours to research about it. Just this morning, I saw an episode of "Kabuhayang Swak na Swak" about an entrepreneur who is making it big in business of selling UP inspired t-shirts and right threre and then, I suddenly felt that this too is the business for me. I've again searched on the net and was able to get some infos on how to start up one. First, you must have your own design for your tshirts. I don't know how to draw, I am not so good in creating logos and designs, but I do know one who is good at it... My kuya Elmer! Once I was able to start this biz, I would ask him to work for me instead. It would definitely help him raise my nephew. The other things to consider are finding the right machines to print the designs on the shirt, looking for the best tshirt suppliers and where to market the items. Among the latter three, finding the best tshirt supplier will be the most challenging thing to do but I do believe that once I was able to study the ins and outs of the business...everything will go well. I hope all my prayers will be granted. Thank you for the desires of my life Lord, Amen!!!

A Prayer

Sometimes I feel most of my decisions in life is a failure. I should have done this, I should have chosen that...but through all these failures , I feel that God is always leading me to the right path..that whenever I feel down, He is always ready to pick me up so I can starts all over again. I'm not sure if I have chosen the right road to take - I am not even sure where life would lead me. Most of the time are spent thinking of what will happen in the future. I am always dreaming of a better tomorrow, when in fact, I could make that dream into reality NOW. I need guidance Lord, especially in where I want to be 5 years from now. Please help me make the right decisions. Help me be the person you want me to be. Guide me Lord and I know with you in my life...I would never be wrong. Amen.

Fight Till the End

Just yesterday, two of my teammates lost their jobs. It's so sad. I know they've done their best to stay on their current positions but the management already decided. They need to leave. One of them made the company his second home for five years and in just a snap...all the priviledges was taken away from him. Good thing, he still can get his retirement pay. The company provides retirement pay to those who had at least 5 years tenureship. The person fought till the end, even rendered overtime to improve his performance for the month..but he wasnt able to improve his scorecard for the month that's why he needs to be on forced resignation to still get his retirement pay. I barely know the man, I just met him last month as he is a newbie in the team but I will never forget his perseverance and his willingness to fight till the end...I think that's what matters most... he never gave up, at least he had no reasons to regret that he did not gave his all. I just feel sad because I was'nt able to know him better, I could have learned something from him. Well, that's life. I just pray that his next endeavor would be more successful than this one.

I Need Rest

Saturday and Sunday were my restdays for the week. My friends are inviting us our last Saturday for a night out as Peejay does have free ticket invites at a famous comedy bar. Thought I would love to go… I decided not to join as I feel really tired I don’t know why I always feel that I need simple rest as things really get clogging in my brain, I feel I need to rejuvenate myself by resting and first reasons myself. I’m already 29 years old and I still don’t know is that what’s my next step after cvg. All I know is that I would be returning from work on the next two years - get my early retirement pay and have a good life. I know I want to have a business but that part is not clear either. I need my rest to take. Unfortunately – I again wasn’t’ able to go to church today. I wast I would just wake up one day and everything in my life in proper place.

On Losing Weight

Wow! Summer is here! I can feel it through the hot wind blowing on my face when I go for a walk after shift...and what's the best thing to do during summer? What else but swim! Waaahh, speaking of which...our team will have a team building at Mango Camp Zambales and instead of being excited...I'm kinda scared. I will be going out with beautiful, skinny people for God's sake! Huhuhu. I know I should not be intimidated and should at least just flaunt whatever I have (whatever it is!) instead of having a self pity and just lock my door up and say "NO" to the world! But to be honest with you...I can't help it..not that I don't want to see them having fun with their pettite sexy bodies..it's just that I also want to have one like them. That's the very reason why I've decided to go to they gym with my dear friend Mamu. Well gonna go to Red Corner at the Holiday Inn come first of April and would do my best to knock off the pounds again. I won't say anything anymore - almost all my plans of losing weight had failed so far..just check my posts if this one came to materialize soon. hehehe.

Life Is Too Short

Another wonderful day spent with my mother. We met her @ SM North Edsa food court and as always, we ate out and kwentuhan to the max. I miss this gimik moment I have with her because I was'nt able to see her for 2 weeks. She went to Bangued Abra to reunite with her siblings. I knew she had a very good time, I can tell from the stories she happily share with me and Jojo. We ate at KFC, each of us finished a Fully Loaded Meal! Hahaha, it's really a very pleasant experience...eating a heavy meal while sharing good experiences. After a hearty meal, we decided to watch Sarah and John Lloyd's movie "You Changed My Life" but upon seeing how many people are eagerly waiting on the line for the same movie...we decided to just call it a day and we would just watch the movie tomorrow @ Waltermart. Yipee! Besides, mama does have a lot of things to do as she promised to make three blouses for me. I really appreciate Mama and I am thankful that she is still with us. I told her about her friend Lola Vicky, our neighbor, who passed away last February 26 (if I remember it correctly)> The old woman does'nt have any sickness at all, and then one day...according to her husband - she felt dizzy and so his husband sent her to the hospital where she gave up. It was really a shocking news for us as we always see her with his apo roaming within the neighborhood. I pray that she is now with the Lord and I pray that wherever she is...she is now happy with the Lord. Another reminder for all of us that LIFE IS SOOOO SHORT, we must appreciate and seize the day. Let us always remind ourselves that we are only given a very limited time here on earth to prove that we deserve eternal life in heaven with our Dear God, let's not waste that opportunity. I know that I am saying this things because I am also encouraging myself to go back to church. I hope and pray God would lead me to a Church in which I could grow as a Christian and where I could serve Him with all my might. I hope I can make my stay here on earth worthwhile. Amen.

The Hardest First Step

I just finished doing an entry for an opps and it feels great to be back in business. I want to revive back my passion to blog and make money online through it. Lately I've been busy doing some extra curricular activities with my friends that I overlooked my tasks. Many opps had lapsed at those time but I don't regret a thing...I was able to gain new and wonderful friends - well they are more of a family to me and that was more than enough.

Anyways, I came to the office at 5:26 AM... late again. Hayyy...I don't want to be late anymore but what can I do? It's really hard to get up at 3:30 in the morning - so I just gave in to the urge and stayed in bed until 4:10 am. It's nice that TL is not around...if he is, I bet he would again get my attention. Mamu, my gay friend, just showed up but went home early as well so I was just left with Ice, Melai and Perl. The que is not that much, in fact, at 1:00 PM - we were approved for VGH (Voluntary Go Home). Since the innaguration of President Obama, our que decreased tremendously that our SLT's allowed us to go home. I just spent some time with Melai and PJ as we ate Siomai at Siomai House and believe me...it only cost me P33 for a 5 pcs siomai with gulaman. Hehehe. TIpid tipid talaga kami because we have a goal...well that's one and the second is...I don't have enough budget this month. I received P10,000 last Jan 15th and it should be more than enough for me...but it's still not. Maybe a realiable money management is the answer.

I came home at 3PM. Jojo was surprised to see me go home that early. I am happy that Jojo already did the laundry and had a general cleaning in the house. I can see it through the carpet he neatly laid on the floor. He already finished cooking our lunch which is Paksiw na Bangus. I ate three cups of rice today because of that... huhuhu.

All in all, my day was fine. I am able to do the first step in reviving back my passion to blog (which is this post) and I am able to write an entry for my PR2 blog. I hope that the events tomorrow would be as smooth as it is today. Amen.