Haunted by an Old Memory

He again chatted with me saying he got a tech support position on the same company I am working for only he was deligated in UP Ayala Hub. To be honest with you, I don't know why instead of being happy... I was kind'a sad about it. I resigned from my first job because of him... because I don't want to fall in love with my best friend. We're not able to see each other for five long years and then boom ... all of a sudden, he would again show up saying "at last! we're now officemates!" He does'nt have to go to the path I've walked through. I'm soooo much over him already since the day I confessed to him what had transpired in the past which made me decide to leave my job. I was kind'a devastated as he still doesn't have any clue how much he've hurted me. I don't want him to to ruin my life again. I managed to be fine without him... I managed to survive. Now, he's back - wanting me to be a part of his life again...it's just so unfair. I don't know why God allows me to go through the same path again but I believe that this is just a test of faith. I must be strong... I must learn how to resist. I must not give in...not anymore...

A Change of Heart

It has been a great week! I happen to meet with an old friend yesterday and I may say...my feelings for him was not the same as what I used to have before. Things changed drastically. I don't know why I had this sudden change of heart but I am really thankful to God for leading me in the right path. If I still have this strong feelings for him till now, it would be very hard for me to decide whether or not to settle with my present boyfriend. God really moves in mysterious ways and I know that all of these things that transpired within the past couple of months are a part of His plan. Thank you Lord for changing my heart. I now know what you want me to do. Amen.