Busy for the Holidays

I'm sooo tired! I want to sleep already but I still have tons of things to do. I need to update my blogs, bid opps, check my friends' blogs and arrange my things. I did'nt have enough sleep as I need to do so many things in the house. My sister will arrive on Sunday and I really need to make sure the house is spick and span and everything is in order. I changed the bedsheet and put on a new linoleum. I also arranged everything in the kitchen and bought groceries for next week. There are still a lot of things to do but my body is now so tired and I still have my shift later. Hopefully I can manage to stay awake for the rest of my shift tonight. Tomorrow we'll gonna go to SM to purchase Globe Tatoo as a backup dsl connection. The technician who reformatted my newly purchased ASUS EEPC 701 messed up my wireless adapter so my laptop already lost it's wireless capability. My hubby said the tech will come out today to fix my laptop as well as my desktop so hopefully everything would be fixed by tonight. For now, though I still have so many tasks to do on my blog... I think it's time for me to rest now. I just hope I can manage to finish my two task tomorrow. By the way, well gonna go to my Kuya's place in Antipolo tomorrow as we need to fetch ate and family in NAIA early Sunday. Help us Lord and I know everything will be okey next week. Amen.

What a Year Ender!

Next week is the most exciting week for me this whole year. After more than three years, I will be going back home to the province. I could not believe I stayed here for that long without visiting home. Well, a lot of reasons held me back to do so. Shameful but true, it all boils down to finanacial matters. I might have worked for years now here but I don't really have even a single penny saved in the bank. I therefore dont have the fund for the plane ticket and the stuffs that my folks might expect from me when I go home. I was always scared of that. That they might be expecting that I have something for each of them when I go home, but that would not hold me back anymore this time. They have been straight forward to me not to worry about buying anything for them, and that all they want is to see me after the past years, so sweet of them. I have also been longing to see them so much. So now's the time to break the distance.

Though my folks said they do not expect me to bring anything for them, I still have that desire in my heart to be thoughtful enough to give them presents even just for my little cousins. I got a few days to go now before my flight and I really don't have much time to shop around so I thought of just shopping online for kids stuff. Luckily, I stumbled on a website that sells great stuffs for kids and do same day shipping. So now, I got here simple gifts for my cousins that will surely make them joyful. A very cute jellycat stuff toy for DJ, a marshmallow-soft barefoot dreams loungewear for ShanShan, and a very cool appaman shirt for Shahar. They're all just perfect!

So now I am all ready for packing up. I could not wait any longer for Sunday and fly back to my hometown. I know this will be such a marvelous week. My greatest week this year!

Home for the Holidays

I got a text message earlier from my sister living in Singapore that they would be coming home for the holidays. As you all know, I with my hubby, is the one taking care of their house since she and her family migrated to Singapore. She is the one paying all the bills and in return, we need to take care of the house and everything in it. Yes, I am indeed very lucky to have her in my life and she is indeed a very generous sister... but I don't know why I get so nervous knowing they would soon be back.

It's just so happen I am afraid that they will know that my hubby is still unemployed after two long years since they left. I am afraid my sister might misinterpret my hubby's unemployed status to being dependent on me. Actually it's my own personal decision. I asked him not to apply for a job as I want him to manage our business, unfortunately, the business never materialized. I was not able to save as much as I want to and because of that, I was not able to save for our business start up capital. I know this is also not what my hubby wants. I know oftentimes he gets bored as well. He normally spend the day serving me, cooking for me, washing my clothes, cleaning and maintaining the house and just plays free games online or watch free movies on the internet for his own enjoyment. I am afraid she might find it odd that her sister is the one working for us instead of him. My husband is a loving and a giving partner... someone who takes care of my needs first before his and someone who shares so much of himself to me. I hope they could see that kind of person in him rather than someone who does'nt have any dream. I am planning to start a business next month, fortunately, I got my bonus from the company I worked for and is now ready to invest in a small business. I hope my hubby can finally prove to everyone that he can also be successful.

You Will Be Missed, Imee

It's final...the verdict has been given, my friend for two years will need to leave the account and would be transferred to a different one. It was really a sad night for all of us in the team most specially to me as she is one of my closest friend at work. She is my confidant and my usual "yosi buddy" (cigarette break buddy). We would normally go downstairs after lunch time to smoke and my lunch time would definitely be different now that she's not around anymore...

We would normally talk about office stuff, our love life, our dreams and plans for the future and we would occasionally talk about our plan to quit smoking. And as a starting point, we purchased cigarette filters to absorb some of the toxins in the cigarette we smoke and to collect those harmful solid particles known as tar. I've learned all about this by searching the net and finding ways on how to at least lessen the harmful effects of smoking on my body. We do also have plans to purchase what they call e-cigarette (or Electronic Cigarette) which acts and looks much like an actual cigarette but without the harmful toxins associated with smoking but since Imee is now gone, I think I would be the only one to push through with the plan.

Last night, I called her up. I asked her how she was doing and what keeps her busy. She said she would just rest for a while and would start working next year after the holidays. According to her, our coach told her she would go through the normal procedure in applying for a different account. She would also go through the physical exam (and she is now researching on how to pass a drug test , lol) plus written and oral exam. I can hear disappointment on her voice but I told her that everything happens for a purpose. This is God working in her life and that she needs to look on the brighter side. The conversation ended by a promise that I would just be here if she needs me and that I would remain a friend. She would definitely be missed.

The Verdict

Well, tonight will be the final verdict. Tonight, we will know what the client's decision is regarding my friend's case. The recommendation of our OMs is to just push for a suspension but the final say is still from our client. It's 50/50 actually but my friend feels that she will be transferred to another account. I hope not. I would really be sad if that would be the case as she is one of my true friends at work. I really pray the decision would be favorable to her. God, please make a way so that my friend can stay with the account. Amen.

Another Gloomy Day

I slept for almost 7 hours last night but till now... I can't understand why I feel so tired. Not just tired physically...but emotional, mentally, spiriturally. I don't know why I feel so "nega" since yesterday. Though the que is really not that bad and we even had a meeting for almost 2 hours, I still feel the pressured in the office. I feel bad that another close friend would leave the team if ever the final verdict would be either lateral transfer or termination. I already lost two of my closest friend before, one of them I treat as my bestfriend... I don't know if I could still manage to lose another. I feel so sad, tired and confused. I feel threatened, anxious and afraid...afraid of losing the foundation of my future plans. Lord, please let me endure the remaining two years of my call center journey. After two years, I can now do whatever I want to do with my life. I can now start living my dream.... I pray Lord, that you will make a way for my plans. To you be the glory forever, Amen.

What a Gloomy Day

I just don't like this day. I don't know why but I really felt so sad. Maybe I got so tired from my shift as there are so many calls coming in, furthermore, my teammates thought a large size tshirt would fit me so they picked that size for me but since the sizes are too small... there is really no way I could fit in to that shirt. Also, the pag-ibig salary loan we applied for last month still was'nt approved... and last but not the least...there is a possibility that my friend would be transferred to a different account or worse might get terminated because of an honest mistake she committed at work. I just feel like everything is falling apart. I don't like this feeling and I don't like thinking about negative things so I feel I really need to rest well today. I think I need an 8 hour sleep just to drive all these nega things away. I hope tonight would be a better night than last night shift. Amen.

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oh I almost forgot, the shoes I just wore today gave up only after 8 hours of use... what a day!