Invisible Wall

I don't know why I feel aloof and I really am not close to one of my officemates. She is a pretty and kind girl but I just can't read her mind, maybe that's the reason I tend to distance myself to her. I am a joker, most people learned to love me because of my humor and it's my way of befriending someone...but it just won't click to her. There are numerous times I offer her my hand, tried to talk to her, spend some time with her so I can know her better but it just won't work. It's hard because most of my friends are really close to her and whenever we need to go out to eat or to go somewhere...she would always come with us. We really had no fight or something like that but I feel that there is really an invisible wall between us. I hope I can get over this feeling, I really don't like it. I'm really trying my best to befriend everyone on the team. I hope I can bond with her sometime and really try to know who she really is, besides we're in one team...

On Breaking Trust

Haha, we we're permitted to go home today as Lysie, one of our previous qsps, asked us if we can file for vgh (voluntary go home) as there are so many agents on the floor and the que is not that high. In fact, we experienced 15 minutes avail time one hour before our shift ends. It's a relief as we do have a heavy call volume for the past 7 hours! So we signed up for one and was approved for VGH 45 minutes before our shift ends. Everyone was so happy because at last, we can go home early and call it a day as our shift for today was really stressful. I need to go home early as I need to finish review tasks that was supposed to expire today. Unfortunately, Ice, my officemate/friend texted me saying "galit daw si tl dahil nag vgh tayo" wtf? I really can't understand and there's really no point that he would get annoyed because we filed for vgh through other people and not through him. He never told us that we can't file for one if it is not filed through him. Things are really getting complicated on the office. I can't help but to doubt my TL as I once lost my trust in him because of a certain secret we have that he was able to share easily with others. I hate this feeling. I don't want to lose my confidence in him completely as my work would greatly suffer. I hope I can control my emotions and just stay focused on my job.

vgh again with my new teammates!

I am so happy that we again were approved to go on vgh! We had our meeting for almost 2 hours and after our meeting, we were informed that we can now go home. The whole team, together with our new teammates went to Yoohoo Bar @ around 6:00 am to celebrate this event. Haha! We had a beer and a liempo as our pulutan. We had a blast and it seems like we already knew each other for so long because of our manner of speaking and our mannerisms. Maybe because we again happen to have a gay teammate GK. I am so happy that GK is now part of the team as he is the one bringing color to our group. Thanks Lord for my new friends. You really never fail surrounding my life with wonderful people. Amen.

APPLICATION

Last week, Tuesday, I had the chance to take an exam for my application as OFFLINE REPRESENTATIVE FOR TIER 2 in CVG Commonwealth. This is the first time in three years that I'll gonna apply for a promotion. I received an email last Monday that I need to go to the site to take an assessment for Tuesday and to tell you honestly, sobrang kinabahan ako, grabe! I immediatedly reviewed some common terminology used in DSL and went to the at&t helpsite to check for frequently asked questions. Right after my shift, I with Jojo, went straight to the site but unfortunately, nobody knows anything about my exam. Even the receptionist doesnt have the slightest idea on where I need to go. Though I already showed them the text message I received on where I need to take the exam - the guards send me off to LG, UG, 2nd and 3rd floor. I waited at the lobby for almost an hour now and I am really planning to leave in another 30 mins. Good thing, I texted the one who informed me about the exam and after an hour (watda!) she replied asking me to look for a certain TL. The guard accompanied me and informed the TL that I have been there for more than an hour now. The TL is so kind and asked me to take the exam at the conference room for 30 mins. I never thought that the exam would be that easy - it is a five part exam and I answered 3 parts I believe with flying colors. I am positive with the result of it. After 30 mins, the TL came back asking me if I am now ready for the interview. I said yes but he said that it would be better if I am with my TL when they conduct the interview. In that way, my TL can agree to what I am saying. He said I just need to wait as they will contact my TL for the interview schedule with the Operations Manager. I asked him how would I know if I passed or I failed the exam and he replied saying "This test is not a test if you would make it or not - this is just an assessment on how well you know some technical stuff". He said that it is a TIER 2 position w/c I really cant understand. As far as I know, I am already a Tier 2 Tech Support Rep. Well, he also said there are also 2 other applicants from our site and they might get one from us as the position is urgent. I went home tired, hopeful and happy. I did my best - I think that's what really matters. To you be the Glory Jesus, Amen!

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Fight Till the End

Just yesterday, two of my teammates lost their jobs. It's so sad. I know they've done their best to stay on their current positions but the management already decided. They need to leave. One of them made the company his second home for five years and in just a snap...all the priviledges was taken away from him. Good thing, he still can get his retirement pay. The company provides retirement pay to those who had at least 5 years tenureship. The person fought till the end, even rendered overtime to improve his performance for the month..but he wasnt able to improve his scorecard for the month that's why he needs to be on forced resignation to still get his retirement pay. I barely know the man, I just met him last month as he is a newbie in the team but I will never forget his perseverance and his willingness to fight till the end...I think that's what matters most... he never gave up, at least he had no reasons to regret that he did not gave his all. I just feel sad because I was'nt able to know him better, I could have learned something from him. Well, that's life. I just pray that his next endeavor would be more successful than this one.

The Hardest First Step

I just finished doing an entry for an opps and it feels great to be back in business. I want to revive back my passion to blog and make money online through it. Lately I've been busy doing some extra curricular activities with my friends that I overlooked my tasks. Many opps had lapsed at those time but I don't regret a thing...I was able to gain new and wonderful friends - well they are more of a family to me and that was more than enough.

Anyways, I came to the office at 5:26 AM... late again. Hayyy...I don't want to be late anymore but what can I do? It's really hard to get up at 3:30 in the morning - so I just gave in to the urge and stayed in bed until 4:10 am. It's nice that TL is not around...if he is, I bet he would again get my attention. Mamu, my gay friend, just showed up but went home early as well so I was just left with Ice, Melai and Perl. The que is not that much, in fact, at 1:00 PM - we were approved for VGH (Voluntary Go Home). Since the innaguration of President Obama, our que decreased tremendously that our SLT's allowed us to go home. I just spent some time with Melai and PJ as we ate Siomai at Siomai House and believe me...it only cost me P33 for a 5 pcs siomai with gulaman. Hehehe. TIpid tipid talaga kami because we have a goal...well that's one and the second is...I don't have enough budget this month. I received P10,000 last Jan 15th and it should be more than enough for me...but it's still not. Maybe a realiable money management is the answer.

I came home at 3PM. Jojo was surprised to see me go home that early. I am happy that Jojo already did the laundry and had a general cleaning in the house. I can see it through the carpet he neatly laid on the floor. He already finished cooking our lunch which is Paksiw na Bangus. I ate three cups of rice today because of that... huhuhu.

All in all, my day was fine. I am able to do the first step in reviving back my passion to blog (which is this post) and I am able to write an entry for my PR2 blog. I hope that the events tomorrow would be as smooth as it is today. Amen.

On Being Possessive

I really can't get why a friend acts the way she is acting right now. She's being possessive in a way. I can't really get it. We've been friends and been together for almost 2 years now and she would always be a friend to me...but lately she's acting so weird. It seems like she does'nt want me to be close to my new teammates. She wants me to be closer to her than to my gay friend. She feels left out though never in our wildest imagination would we want her to feel that way. It's just I and a gay office mate clicked and whenever we are together - expect no dull moment promise and I am enjoying it! My new found friend is one of my main reasons why I am still here in my current work and if he would leave, I think I would asked to be transferred to another site. I hope and pray that my girl friend would change and stop being jealous. She texted me saying she want's to revive back our friendship but she is acting opposite of what she is saying. She can't get all our attention on her. She needs to grow up!


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FOR HOW LONG?

October 8, 2008
TUESDAY, 6:13 PM

I can't explain what I am feeling today. It's just so happen that a former batchmate, teammate and a friend left the office without saying goodbye to us. We don't even had a clue that he will be resigning. I am talking about our "papang" Pedro Sarcia. We used to call him papang because he is one of the seniors (as in senior citizen) of the team. He is also an ECE graduate like me but the only difference is that he is a licensed ECE! He graduated from CCP, the school where my hubby graduated. We really have a lot in common that's why I felt so sad that he left. Things like this makes me think twice if I would still pursue my plan of sticking with my present employer for three more years especially now that my friends at the office are leaving.

My eyes were opened on the reality that nothing in this world is permanent when my first TL - TL Chrisse was transferred to one of our offices in Bacolod. Then suddenly, my friend and sisterette Ivy followed and went to Dubai. Gherj, one of my closest friends also left to pursure her dream of being a programmer...then Shai, one of my teammates was forced to resign because of her failing scorecards. My batchmates are also planning to leave the company right after we've reached our second year... Julei, Paupau and Niknok (who by the way left already just a few days back) and what's worse...Ice, my closest batchmate and friend at the office is also planning to leave come December together with my gay friend Mamu.

As I mentioned earlier, I dont intend to resign for the next three years because my job pays me well... but with the negative vibes going around the office - I can't help but think twice. I plan to retire three years from now and I intend to have CVG as my last employer before I jump off to another venture which is putting up my own business and be a full time blogger.
Lord, I pray that everything will be OK. Whatever you want to do in my life for your own glory...please make it happen. I trust you and I believe that whatever decisions I may take in the future... I know its all under your will. May you be glorified in everything I do. Amen.

Christmas Gift for Myself

SEPT. 28, 2008
SUNDAY 9:00 am

God day everyone! We woke up just now because nanood pa si Jojo ng "Walang Tulugan" ni Kuya Germs. Hahaha. Even though I am really not a fan of the show, in fact i have so many subcomments - I enjoy watching it because of Shalala. He (or she) has a segment with German Moreno and they tackle Showbiz intrigues today and even in the past. Shalala is so funny and I would keep on watching "Walang Tulugan" just because of his segment.

Anyways last Friday, I with my gay friend Mamu strolled at Robinsons and we treat ourselves at Teriyaki Boy. Grabe, all we were talking about was boys, boys, boys! We even saw RJ of Pinoy Dream Academy at the restaurant and I was star struck, hahaha! I was shocked to see how he looks because anyone can say that he really looks feminine. No joke. Mamu also said (with his "gay-dar" ON) that he look like one... well, who are we to judge. Maybe he just looks vain and maybe he is really a macho man (in which I doubt, hehehe).
After a hearty lunch, we strolled and looked for a laptop. I would love to buy a laptop this Christmas so I can blog to sawa wherever I am. Instead of going the straight route, my gay friend would go to a direction where there are "cute boys" either walking our direction or those that are in their own stalls. I almost cried in laughter when I catched mamu staring at one of those macho barber cleaning their stall in a barbershop. Hay. I went home at around 4:30 PM and just bought food for Jojo.

My restdays (Saturday and Sunday) was spent where else but at home, doing things for my blog. I intend to spend more time and energy on this money making scheme of mine as Christmas is fast approaching and I am saving for a new laptop. I want the new ASUS laptop, the handy one because I want to bring it along with me especially when I am travelling. I want to keep it on my bag so I can blog whenever there's time. I hope I can save enough for my "christmas present". This is how my new laptop look like...


and here are the specs...

Specifications

Display	8.9” Display, 1024 x 600 resolution
Color	Pearl White, Black
CPU	Intel® Mobile CPU
Processor	Intel Mobile Chipset
Memory	DDR II 1GB
Display Card	Intel UMA
Storage	12GB (4GB built-in + 8GB flash) SSD (Microsoft Windows OS Version) 20GB (4GB built-in +16GB flash) SSD (Linux OS Version)
Audio	HD audio / built-in speakers
Wireless	Built-in 802.11b/g
Camera	1.3M Pixel webcam
Storage Cards	SD / MMC (SDHC)
Input / Output	3xUSB / VGA-out (D-Sub, 15pin) / earphone jack / mic / RJ45 10/100 Mbps
Power	Output: 12V, 36W; Input: 100-240V AC, 50/60Hz universal
Operating System	Windows XP Home / Linux
Dimensions	22.5cm(W) x 17.0cm(D) x 2cm~3.38cm(H)
Weight	0.99 kg

I really hope God would allow me to buy this through my hard earned money from blogging. I will update you soon! God Bless!