A Prayer

Sometimes I feel most of my decisions in life is a failure. I should have done this, I should have chosen that...but through all these failures , I feel that God is always leading me to the right path..that whenever I feel down, He is always ready to pick me up so I can starts all over again. I'm not sure if I have chosen the right road to take - I am not even sure where life would lead me. Most of the time are spent thinking of what will happen in the future. I am always dreaming of a better tomorrow, when in fact, I could make that dream into reality NOW. I need guidance Lord, especially in where I want to be 5 years from now. Please help me make the right decisions. Help me be the person you want me to be. Guide me Lord and I know with you in my life...I would never be wrong. Amen.

Fight Till the End

Just yesterday, two of my teammates lost their jobs. It's so sad. I know they've done their best to stay on their current positions but the management already decided. They need to leave. One of them made the company his second home for five years and in just a snap...all the priviledges was taken away from him. Good thing, he still can get his retirement pay. The company provides retirement pay to those who had at least 5 years tenureship. The person fought till the end, even rendered overtime to improve his performance for the month..but he wasnt able to improve his scorecard for the month that's why he needs to be on forced resignation to still get his retirement pay. I barely know the man, I just met him last month as he is a newbie in the team but I will never forget his perseverance and his willingness to fight till the end...I think that's what matters most... he never gave up, at least he had no reasons to regret that he did not gave his all. I just feel sad because I was'nt able to know him better, I could have learned something from him. Well, that's life. I just pray that his next endeavor would be more successful than this one.

I Need Rest

Saturday and Sunday were my restdays for the week. My friends are inviting us our last Saturday for a night out as Peejay does have free ticket invites at a famous comedy bar. Thought I would love to go… I decided not to join as I feel really tired I don’t know why I always feel that I need simple rest as things really get clogging in my brain, I feel I need to rejuvenate myself by resting and first reasons myself. I’m already 29 years old and I still don’t know is that what’s my next step after cvg. All I know is that I would be returning from work on the next two years - get my early retirement pay and have a good life. I know I want to have a business but that part is not clear either. I need my rest to take. Unfortunately – I again wasn’t’ able to go to church today. I wast I would just wake up one day and everything in my life in proper place.

On Losing Weight

Wow! Summer is here! I can feel it through the hot wind blowing on my face when I go for a walk after shift...and what's the best thing to do during summer? What else but swim! Waaahh, speaking of which...our team will have a team building at Mango Camp Zambales and instead of being excited...I'm kinda scared. I will be going out with beautiful, skinny people for God's sake! Huhuhu. I know I should not be intimidated and should at least just flaunt whatever I have (whatever it is!) instead of having a self pity and just lock my door up and say "NO" to the world! But to be honest with you...I can't help it..not that I don't want to see them having fun with their pettite sexy bodies..it's just that I also want to have one like them. That's the very reason why I've decided to go to they gym with my dear friend Mamu. Well gonna go to Red Corner at the Holiday Inn come first of April and would do my best to knock off the pounds again. I won't say anything anymore - almost all my plans of losing weight had failed so far..just check my posts if this one came to materialize soon. hehehe.

Life Is Too Short

Another wonderful day spent with my mother. We met her @ SM North Edsa food court and as always, we ate out and kwentuhan to the max. I miss this gimik moment I have with her because I was'nt able to see her for 2 weeks. She went to Bangued Abra to reunite with her siblings. I knew she had a very good time, I can tell from the stories she happily share with me and Jojo. We ate at KFC, each of us finished a Fully Loaded Meal! Hahaha, it's really a very pleasant experience...eating a heavy meal while sharing good experiences. After a hearty meal, we decided to watch Sarah and John Lloyd's movie "You Changed My Life" but upon seeing how many people are eagerly waiting on the line for the same movie...we decided to just call it a day and we would just watch the movie tomorrow @ Waltermart. Yipee! Besides, mama does have a lot of things to do as she promised to make three blouses for me. I really appreciate Mama and I am thankful that she is still with us. I told her about her friend Lola Vicky, our neighbor, who passed away last February 26 (if I remember it correctly)> The old woman does'nt have any sickness at all, and then one day...according to her husband - she felt dizzy and so his husband sent her to the hospital where she gave up. It was really a shocking news for us as we always see her with his apo roaming within the neighborhood. I pray that she is now with the Lord and I pray that wherever she is...she is now happy with the Lord. Another reminder for all of us that LIFE IS SOOOO SHORT, we must appreciate and seize the day. Let us always remind ourselves that we are only given a very limited time here on earth to prove that we deserve eternal life in heaven with our Dear God, let's not waste that opportunity. I know that I am saying this things because I am also encouraging myself to go back to church. I hope and pray God would lead me to a Church in which I could grow as a Christian and where I could serve Him with all my might. I hope I can make my stay here on earth worthwhile. Amen.

The Hardest First Step

I just finished doing an entry for an opps and it feels great to be back in business. I want to revive back my passion to blog and make money online through it. Lately I've been busy doing some extra curricular activities with my friends that I overlooked my tasks. Many opps had lapsed at those time but I don't regret a thing...I was able to gain new and wonderful friends - well they are more of a family to me and that was more than enough.

Anyways, I came to the office at 5:26 AM... late again. Hayyy...I don't want to be late anymore but what can I do? It's really hard to get up at 3:30 in the morning - so I just gave in to the urge and stayed in bed until 4:10 am. It's nice that TL is not around...if he is, I bet he would again get my attention. Mamu, my gay friend, just showed up but went home early as well so I was just left with Ice, Melai and Perl. The que is not that much, in fact, at 1:00 PM - we were approved for VGH (Voluntary Go Home). Since the innaguration of President Obama, our que decreased tremendously that our SLT's allowed us to go home. I just spent some time with Melai and PJ as we ate Siomai at Siomai House and believe me...it only cost me P33 for a 5 pcs siomai with gulaman. Hehehe. TIpid tipid talaga kami because we have a goal...well that's one and the second is...I don't have enough budget this month. I received P10,000 last Jan 15th and it should be more than enough for me...but it's still not. Maybe a realiable money management is the answer.

I came home at 3PM. Jojo was surprised to see me go home that early. I am happy that Jojo already did the laundry and had a general cleaning in the house. I can see it through the carpet he neatly laid on the floor. He already finished cooking our lunch which is Paksiw na Bangus. I ate three cups of rice today because of that... huhuhu.

All in all, my day was fine. I am able to do the first step in reviving back my passion to blog (which is this post) and I am able to write an entry for my PR2 blog. I hope that the events tomorrow would be as smooth as it is today. Amen.

Happy Birthday Papa and Eddyson!

Today is my father's birthday. The original plan was to celebrate the birthday celebration here at our place but Papa has other plans since his "barkadas" will have a drinking spree on their house. I know papa is happy now with his life along with his new family. I just hope and pray to God that He would give him looooooooooong and healthy life with us.

Today is also Eddyson's 1st birthday. We will celebrate it tomorrow @ Jollibee StarMall.

To the birthday celebrants...God Bless and may the good Lord shower you with overflowing blessings all the rest of your lives...